The Boo

Abby "Boo" will be two months in a few days. She has had quite an eventful second month of life. She accompanied me at work for a few days and was watched by dad and grandma on other days. Jason and I stressed about finding daycare for Boo because waiting lists seem to be cropping up at every turn. We mutually agreed to go with a structured daycare facility. But though we are pleased with the facility this past week was very hard on me. I now travel 40 miles to and from work and leave early in the morning so that I can be home with Boo a while before I go to bed to repeat the cycle all over again. I miss her a lot while I am at work and wonder how she is all the time she is without her mommy and daddy. Though I know she wont remember these days I know I will miss a lot of her growth, development, and "firsts" thereby not being able to remember it for her and partaking in those moments. We have started Boo on formula today and will mix breast milk feedings and formula for a while until we switch her permanently to formula by the third month. This is hard on me because of the guilt of not being able to make it three months. But, I have found that I lack the patience and discipline to pump enough milk for her AND feed her. I'm sure I will get over it eventually. Grandma has decided to watch Boo on Fridays until January, which is fine by me as it gives them time to bond and hangout. Just this past Friday they went shopping together. I wonder if Abby will be a girlie girl (with grandmas help)? :)