To Have a 3rd or Not... That is the Question.

I feel like I am being so nonchalant about this miscarriage. Kinda like a heartless bitch. But going from yes, to no, to yes, to a final no took a lot out of me emotionally. It is extraordinarily hard to put all that I went through into eloquent words. I have had over a week to come to terms with my miscarriage. I feel unresolved in whether I will actually try for any more children in the future. One thing I do know is that making that decision right now is not a good idea. But here is my list so far of Pros and Cons. . . Pros aren’t looking that persuasive right now are they?

Pros:
Another wonderful child in our lives
Another companion/friend/sibling for the kids

Cons:
Less money on hand for college fund, single family home, vacations, emergencies, etc.
Adult to Children ratio 2:3 which could be problematic
Pregnancy “Issues”
Having to lose the weight all over again
Sleep deprivation extended a few years
Diapers extended a few years
Less Mommy & Daddy “alone” time — including vacations on our own (which we haven’t ever really had)
More mouths to feed and bodies to take care of when they are sick


Obviously third children come only because the parents don’t care about the Cons or the third was an “Oops” — you decide.

Anyhow, I am still undecided. Does less money and less spare time beat out? Stay tuned because next year is the last year I am willing to go through any more pregnancies. And dear higher powers no more miscarriages! Although, maybe that was a sign? Food for thought.