My Sanity Can't Take Much More

Lately our lives have been a total suck•tastic•fest. Jason’s layoff may be a total godsend because hey he may get a job that pays him more and put my mind at ease... that is if he gets one before we are broke. And that would be by April. Yup. April. We have no savings and no income. And thank god we got our huge ass tax return or April would have been March. And all my loved ones are like you will be ok things will work out and I am like yeah I know. But really? No. I. Don’t.

And then Morgan started showing signs of teething the other day so his fussiness was blown off until I felt just how warm he was and I was like FUCK! I took his temp and it was 103.8! And panic struck. We have no health insurance. None. So I called the Pediatricians office and I talked to a nurse. She was like bring him in we can work something out for payment. And because I love my son and was concerned I took him in. And the whole time I was torn. My son means the world to me and I was like please don’t let it be something bad. But additionally I was like SHIT how am I going to pay for this? The Doc was awesome. Sweet, Kind, and Understanding. She took a swab from his nose and went to do a test to make sure it wasn’t the Flu or RSV (or something). And of course in the 15 min it takes for results I was like breath in breath out. Stay calm. You can get through this.

The Doc came back in and said that both tests were negative. His nose, ears, and throat were all fine and that he most likely had a virus. That is when I reminded her that we had no insurance and she was like “oh that’s right, the nurses told me”. And that’s when she was like your children’s health is very important and we don’t want you not coming to us when something is wrong so... We aren’t going to charge you for the visit.

I about passed out.

Thank you so much! Butttt she said if you come in and we have to do something like an outgoing lab that costs us money then we will hold you liable for the cost of the procedure. Ummm. Yeah. Ok.

Inside I am doing summersaults Ally McBeal style. And shouting AWESOME! And giving the Doc hugs while flinging her around in circles.

So life isn’t a total suck•fest, but I am still freaking worried about the imminent $0.00 to our name. And living in *GULP* my parents house. No offense mom (& dad).

And it has been nice to have Jason around, but for god sake someone hire him! Now!

The Bunnies Are Doomed!

I have not had much to post about lately. For all my boasting about my kiddos and all I can't keep my mind off the fact that we have no income right now. None. And though the kids are doing well and oblivious to our plight I can't seem to come up with cheerful awesometastic news. We are in a rut. But...

As a distracting method I have launched my freelance company and its' site which I also designed. I am very proud of it and hope that I can market myself successfully. I am not very good at those things. But heck I can give it the good ole' college try. Right? One Shoe Off Design Studio.

So tonight I met with a prospective client and all went well. I just need to write up a contract... which I have never done. Ever. I think I will use an invoice style form with an itemization cost breakdown. This is the stuff I hate about business. All I want to do is the work and get paid... someone else can do the monkeypaperwork. *sigh*

So I am not pooping out bunnies and rainbows, but at least this post wasn't all doom and gloom like I currently feel inside. I am totally unable to be over-the-top that I have more than 2 clients right now. Time will come when I don't need to worry like I am, but I sure as hell wish I knew when!