I Wasn't Stressed Before

This post contains TMI, but I have to get it off my back before it consumes me whole. I never claimed to be a very patient person, though I can be in certain situations, this situation is certainly not one of them.

Last Thursday after I got home from working out and realized that I was “late” by 3 or so days I peed on a stick and waited 2 minutes. The result was a faint line and an obvious line (which was the same result I got from my last pregnancy) — my first response was “Oh, Shit!” I am not prepared to have a third as I am still adjusting to two. I wasn’t even sure that I still want a third.

So, like last time, I called up my OB and requested to come in for a blood test. Unlike the last two pregnancies I was told they could not see me until Monday (that would be this past Monday and they usually take me the day I call). So I waited “patiently” all weekend, but shared with some friends and family that I was pregnant again. Having no doubts that I was or could be otherwise.

I was supposed to find out the results on Tuesday around 3pm. All day I was feeling anxious, crampy, and I noticed that I was “spotting”. This made me all the more anxious to know what the results were. Alas, after leaving a message at about 3pm by 6pm (when I had planned to go exercise) I had not heard from anyone. I contacted the doctor on call about my concerns and he said to call at 9am to find out my results and “take it easy” (so no exercise for me on Tuesday night).

As many of you know I have a predisposition for a “high blood clotting factor” so I had made an appointment with my hematologist for yesterday at 10am (assuming that I would have had the blood work results by Tuesday). So I called the OB’s office right at 9am and was told that my “count was low” for the number of weeks I claim to be (about 5-6 at this point). Right away my Mommy Spidy Senses were at 11 out of 10. You see I had come to accept my pregnancy in the short period of time and the “spotting” had got me all freaked out topped off with the “count was low” and I was really beginning to panic. Basically the OB was saying that it was highly likely that I was having a “chemical pregnancy” and not to worry that he didn’t think it was ectopic (thank god for that, not that I thought that that would be the case). So anyways they wanted a new blood draw and I just got the results.

By the way my result was a 25mIU/ml on Monday and a 35mIU/ml from Wednesday.

hCG levels in weeks from LMP (gestational age)* : * 3 weeks LMP: 5 - 50 mIU/ml * 4 weeks LMP: 5 - 426 mIU/ml --> my current ~week * 5 weeks LMP: 18 - 7,340 mIU/ml * 6 weeks LMP: 1,080 - 56,500 mIU/ml * 7 - 8 weeks LMP: 7, 650 - 229,000 mIU/ml * 9 - 12 weeks LMP: 25,700 - 288,000 mIU/ml * 13 - 16 weeks LMP: 13,300 - 254,000 mIU/ml * 17 - 24 weeks LMP: 4,060 - 165,400 mIU/ml * 25 - 40 weeks LMP: 3,640 - 117,000 mIU/ml * Non-pregnant females: <5.0 mIU/ml * Postmenopausal females: <9.5 mIU/ml From http://www.americanpregnancy.org/duringpregnancy/hcglevels.html.

So now I have to go in for blood work next week. Oh and that “spotting” it hasn’t stopped but neither has it gotten worse.

I am freaked the shit out right now. I thought I could be okay with not being pregnant, but the not knowing if I am or am not about to miscarry is putting me into an emotional state I would rather not be in at all. Am I pregnant and is the baby ok or NOT???

So I am going to do my very best to continue as usual. But any support on my 6 readers parts would be fantabu-frakin-licious!

GUR Day

A few of you may know that I started working out this past week. Only 2 days so far, very intense hour long aerobics, but that is enough for now. I am committed to get in shape and get healthy. And will continue going until I feel capable of adding 3, then 4, and then 5 days. I have become my own motivator, but yesterday I participated in The Great Urban Race and think I may have found my bigger motivator.

As many of you know I LOVE the Amazing race. So when the opportunity presented itself recently to participate in something that was similar in nature I went for it.

Sadly they only gave us 5 hours (and I and my teammate completed it in 4.5 hours, but it took 40 min to get back to the finish line therefore we were "late") and instead of checking in late comers who worked their asses off, didn't quit, and got through the race, they left everyone hanging. I don't see why they created that rule. It is a de-motivator for some who paid to enter the race, and yes they were not in the top finishers, but they put forth the effort and deserve recognition for the effort. I mean I really wanted to know if we got everything correct and what our time actually was. It was very disappointing to say the least that we were not given that chance.

Additionally I found one called High Trek Adventure and Urban Dare and I have every intention of trying GUR again. I just need to get in shape and healthy quickly. To get from point A to point B and so forth. Faster and in time. And so finally! FINALLY!!! I have found my motivator!!!

Just as a side note. Back in December or there abouts I told Jason that I wanted a scavenger hunt type 30th Birthday Party. Because since I can remember I have always wanted to have one. And with the Amazing Race and Geo caching out there I know that it is possible and that would be AWESOME!